You say you will be, everything I need
You said if I lose my life it's then I'll find my soul
You say let it go.
-tenth avenue north

New life...

A few months ago I embarked on a new chapter in life: life post-college. I guess part of me thought this day would never come that even after graduation came and went I would still have to return to school come September (I've even being having dreams about it...bad ones...but still). Well I'm not. Shocker. It seems to have come time to enter the "real world" and while I'm technically there I'm not so sure how I feel about it. It feels like such an odd time in life. One that I'm dreading and extremely excited about all in one.

I remember four years ago, graduating high school, leaving for college and hearing people tell me these would be the best four years of my life. I thought they were crazy. They didn't know what high school was like for me. I loved it. I loved my friends and nothing could top it. I was wrong. College was by far the best four years I have experienced to date. Not only have I become friends with people who are less like friends and more like family but God changed my life in college, in ways I will never be able to deny.

But that is now behind me, it's just so crazy to think about it. I'm a "real person" now :) with a real job, real bills and real life ahead of me. While I am going to miss college and living with my best friends only a few feet away, I am excited. Excited to see what the next 4 years have in store, excited to see where into this ridiculously unknown place known as the "real world" God is going to take me next. There has been a quote that I have posted in about a bazillion (yes, that is a number. I learned it in college :/) places that I don't think I have ever really been able to grasp until now: "The greatest consequence of losing our imagination, our wonder, is that we no longer see the Christward life as an adventure." That's exactly what lies ahead of me. A chance to take all that I learned in the last 4 years and live out this new adventure that Christ has set out for me. I'm terrified and yet terribly excited.

Leeland: Beautiful Lord

Beautiful Lord
Awesome and mighty
I'm captured by this love I see
Beautiful Lord
Tender and holy
Your mercy brings me to my knees
It's Your mercy that has made me free
Beautiful Lord

When my sin is all that I can see
Your grace remains the shelter that I seek
And when my weakness is all I can give
Your gentle Spirit gives me strength again
And oh, the beauty of Your majesty
On the cross You showed Your love for me

And I am lifted by Your love to sing!
It's Your mercy that has made me free!