Friday, September 28, 2007

I've always liked a challenge...

I've been challenged by professors before. You know, those science classes where it's a multiple choice question about the creation of the world and you're forced to answer either "D. over millions of years" instead of "A. by a divine being" because you know you've failed the rest of the test so you have to give him the answer he wants. (but maybe you just put a few...or 20...arrows to the actual answer) :) If your a Christian at a secular school chances are pretty good you've encountered that, but never this.

I can't say I'm I've kinda been waiting to encounter it but still.

Having a professor ask me to write an essay telling him that God is evil is not something I'm gonna do. The essay was based on 1 Samuel 16:14 where God takes his anointing off of Saul and "an evil spirit from the Lord tormented him". The essay was something along the lines of, "If Satan does not exist yet, what does this tell us about the character of God?" I didn't know how to respond, most of us in that class had no idea. but we all just had to shoot up a prayer for some much needed wisdom, take a deep breath, and write.

I guess this is what you get when you take Bible as Literature from an atheist.

funny thing is when he gave us this question...I was terrified. I had no words. It looked like he had this smirk the whole time too, like "haha. I've got them stumped." but I couldn't help but laugh a little. All of me was thinking, "You may ask me questions that give me more questions, but there's no way you're shaking my faith." I mean, I'm more than ok with asking God questions. I may not have all the answers for this man, but God does and if I don't understand everything while I'm on this earth...I'm still gonna believe with all my heart.

Look out. I'm gonna learn a lot this semester. :)

Tuesday, September 18, 2007

Never underestimate my Jesus...

this week has been the most stressful week (not even including all the other commitments outside of school) i have ever been through. everyday a new paper, everyday a new exam. everyday. every class.

i have never been so tired.

Monday i was already exhausted. i found myself walking to my night class where i had a speech due. i found myself almost in tears not knowing how i would get through not only that day but that week. i was praying and begging my brain to remember a verse of encouragement. and sure enough, God is so so good and Psalm 46:10 came to mind, "Be still and know that I am God." It was so comforting to just be reminded that God is God. no amount of exams or papers or speeches (as silly as it sounds) will change that. If his plans for me are that i graduate then i'm gonna graduate. as long as i stay in His will there's no need to freak out. it was more comforting and peaceful than anything i could have asked for...He got me through the week. amazing how just a few words can give you so much.

maybe one day i'll get around to writing all the other things that happened this week too...